What life is all about...: 2011

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

What is it about Fear?

I've been doing more reading as of lately than I have done in a while. I think reading is a wonderful way of exploring outside of our own minds yet at the same time stimulating a deeper look at our own minds as well. Fear, Love and Faith are what have been on the forefront of my reading as of lately. Where does all the fear come from in the world today? the book i'm reading says "Our childhood conditioning was most probably saturated with beliefs stemming from words such as : impossible, difficult, have to, should, can't, do/don't, no/never, bad and doubt. Millions of seeds of limitation and doubt were planted in our young and impressionable minds." When I read this it really got me to thinking. What are we teaching the generation we are raising?? Are we encouraging them...or are we discouraging them all the while convincing ourselves that its a form of protection and love that a child needs in order to survive now and learn lifes experiences. Is this a scary world we live in? It is if that is what you choose to put your focus towards. Whether talking about myself or the lives God allows me to enter into on a daily basis, I have found myself reflecting on what kind of influence I have on others and if any what path this leads them to. Am I encouraging, supportive, loving, empathetic, sympathetic without enabling destructive behaviors, kind, selfless? Or am I discouraging, creating limitations, being realistic to the point of cutting down dreams? Do I exude love to all or do I give off fear?? Does my Faith in my Savior show in my daily life, in the choices I make, in attitude I choose, in the Love I give?? I think of the children of today...we give them so many donts and cants...what happened to the encouraging words to build them up. Instead of "Don't fall!"--why not "Land on your feet!". I know this may see odd to some, but think about the words we choose! The no 4 letter word motto really has something to it I believe. So many people let this world be all about fear and doubt on a constant basis. What happen to Faith, Love and God. What happened to living our lives to be a living example of God's love, of his faithfulness and his mercy? He knows we all have free will, he gave us that for a reason. How else do you think Faith would be such a huge part of belief. Our thoughts are where our belief comes from and our beliefs dictate our life, choices, experiences, and future. Its something to think about on a daily basis if not every moment in time. So what are you choosing? Fear or Love? Even in the daily struggles, these are just opportunities to grow, to show God's love, for above all else we know at least one thing...GOD IS LOVE.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Wow its been way too long!!!

OK! I don't know how easily I can update you on the last 6 months but I'll do my best! On the career front, nothing new, things are the same and I still love what I do! Though! I guess I do have a little fun on the horizon in regards to my career. I am now the Medical Coordinator for Camp Quality of Kansas, this is camp is run strictly by volunteers so this is obviously not a paying position but I am very excited for the experience and know it will be a great and different way to use my experience and education. The camp has kids that are or have been diagnosed with Cancer, the whole point of the camp is for the kids to just be kids! I am really excited for this! It will be from July 10th-15th. Training day is coming up this coming Saturday so I will get to meet more of the staff that I will be working with.
As for my family, things are going well. Roy is still at KU working on his degree, he should graduate this coming December! Poor guy is all alone in KC now though. Though I've made it up there a couple times to remind him I'm not far away. Matt and I made a trip up there for his birthday at the end of April and had a great time hanging out with him and my friend Michelle came along as well! It was a great time and a much needed day away from home for Matt and I! Very relaxing! :-) Melissa is still in Las Vegas and mom and dad are currently doing some traveling but have been residing in Lake Havasu City, AZ. I on the other hand am still in Valley Center but took a mini trip to Vegas/Arizona to see the family and bring in my 30s. That's right! I'm 30 years old (crazy to think how quickly that came about!)! When I got back my love spent my birthday with me just relaxing, went to dinner (sushi--a fave or ours) and he did a photo shoot with me in downtown Wichita. If you don't know the area, downtown Wichita has some awesome places to take photos, older buildings, the river, etc. He truly made it a special day. Later that weekend he joined me with some friends to celebrate with them at The Alley where I got my butt kicked by a 7 year old haha! Pretty funny but we had a lot of fun bowling and just hanging out with friends. Here are some photos!