Where its at...

So I have been a homeowner for almost a week now...though its exciting and i have this huge sense of accomplishment..let me tell ya what i have learned! Being a homeowner is expensive!!! And it is literally a pain! Not as in an inconvenience, as in painful. I mowed the lawn...did i mention it was almost a foot high grass???!!! Then i painted my bathroom a different color...which by the way both look awesome!!!! I will have pictures and videos to show as soon as i have the energy to put it all up! lol

A new chapter about to begin...

So I will officially be a homeowner tomorrow. I am so grateful to God for blessing me with this opportunity especially as an independent single woman. Though gettin to this point has been like a rollercoaster, I'm glad I'm buying a house and wont have to do this again for a very long time! haha Don't think my stomach could take much more of it! Lots of work yet to do on the house...moving, painting, decorating, cleaning, organizing, mowing, trimming...and the list goes on and on haha. I'm definitely needing help also! Anyone who has the time! Especially on the moving end of things!!! Can't do it all by myself! haha

Trying to remain positive and hopeful...

So I'm supposed to be closing on my house this Thursday, but as I have been told by many people, there seems to be some uncertainty of if that will happen or not. Nothing I can do anything about but I can't help but be disappointed that this is where things sit right now. We will see...I'm just praying it all pans out between now and then...

Ready for some calm days...

Got back from Dallas on Sunday. Had a fantastic time and learned so much about the indian culture. Reema and Ricky look so happy together. It was great to see Reema so at peace and happy with where she is at in her life right now. I enjoyed just watching all the celebrating and ceremonies, taking it all in. I will post pictures soon when I get the time. I even enjoyed the traveling. During my driving I listened to another Andy Stanley sermon called Faith, Hope and Luck. It was awesome. I just love listening to sermons while I'm driving. Didn't use to but I've had quite a change of heart. I used to just drive and sing, don't get me wrong is still do that but I find using my long drives for learning and growing in God. Its an amazing time for little to no distractions and just some quiet time with me and God. So nice!

Today at work I was sent to go help in the special care nursery. I held a little premie who's mom is not going to get to keep him because her other 3 kids have already been taken away and she isn't a fit mother. Such a difficult reality for this new little blessing that has been brought into such a difficult world. The nurse taking care of him had no hesitation telling me to hold him while she went to do some things. I picked him up immediately, he squirmed and took some time to get comfortable, but then just fell into my arms. I sat there rocking him ever so slightly and just thought how much of a blessing a little child is and how sad it is that this mother couldn't make the decisions in her life to give him the life and mother he so desperately needs and deserves. I found myself starting to sing, like i do so often when i'm holding little ones. But for the first time I found myself singing Jesus loves me to him. Seemed to me that depending on the life he leads from this point on that I wasn't sure if he would ever have someone in his life that tells him Jesus loves him...i just felt so moved to sing it over and over. And then I sang a song to him that I've been singing since i was a little girl and to this day when life hands me difficult situations I find it layed on my heart.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and never lean on your own understanding. In all of your ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your path. When I am discouraged or when i am afraid i put my trust in my father and I look upon his name. All of my cares and troubles, i'll leave at his feet. For i know my heavenly father, will always stand by me. Trust in the Lord."

I sang this song in church when i was about 8 or 9 years old and haven't sung it in public since, but for some reason I have never forgotten it. What wonderful words!

So as i sat holding this pressure little baby boy, i prayed protection and blessing over him, and that he would come to know God and seek him no matter what this world brought his way. Its all I could offer this precious little babe.

Ready for a vacation!!!

Well in the middle of all that is going on this month I am taking a small trip to celebrate the engagement of my friend Reema to her fiance Ricky. I'm heading to Dallas this weekend for a big party that they are throwing to bring in the beginning of what should be some fun times in planning their wedding and the rest of their lives together! I'm so happy for the both of them that they managed to find the person they will spend the rest of their lives with. Next weekend I'm a bridesmaid in a wedding that i mentioned before (Matt and Daylee) and then the next weekend is my closing for my house! Just crazy how it all sneaks up on ya! haha I'm excited for it all though! Its so fun to watch my friends have such wonderful moments in their lives. Of course I can't help but wonder when some of that stuff will happen for me but I am doing all that I can to just trust in God and his plan for my life. Right now my baby is my house! Though my patience is growing thinner by the day I continually remind myself of the prize, I'll be a homeowner! Of course that comes with a lot of responsibilities and challenges but I'm excited for the challenge! Well I need to go pack my bags as I am heading for KC after work tomorrow! Then early flight friday morning! Dallas here I come!